not even the biggest curse i thought it was

i thought i might die because i haven't been sleeping-- but sterling said no-- that it's how i feel day to day that counts. i tend to agree because of how i feel, and that i won't do any permanent damage-- but i still fear that someday my bowels simply won't work at all from the nutritional and substance abuse, combined with unproductive fretting. i fear they won't have had time to heal during the night since i don't sleep enough. i never sleep enough. this is perhaps why my bowels are rotten in the first place. my insomnia has been ever-present, and now i just don't bother to go to bed. it's rad at night. it's rad in the morning. the day kind of sucks, but i have to work-- so i do the best i can do. sam graci would be rolling over in his greens factory (to appropriate a funny joke and drastically diminish its humour-- especially since nobody really knows who sam graci is), but this is how my body works. what would richard say? i should ask him.

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and i changed into my kill em' all shirt and brown pants (black n' brown, man), not knowing that ol' black n' brown himself would be showing up a little later. a little after i got home from work, a little after i made a tofu sandwich, a little after i smoked a honeyrose with my brother before he left for work. but he did show, and andy did not-- which blew. but jason oickle was on fire, relaying stories at a great and rapid pace. lots of new ones to add to my repritoire of liverpool stories with which to shock and appall outsiders. saw some more casey and brian's half an hour show, a waterspitting piece (which had special meaning to me as a waterspitter/toothpastespitter/liquorspitter/spitspitter/etcspitter/butnot everythingspitter. i had to spit out a fire tonight! good fucking firefighting, declared he) and many more sketches. gold i'd never seen-- including none other than "sore fingah!" i love when the fragments come together. i also was very pumped to see the dennis jollimore cooking sauerkraut piece.
then kelsey called from australia, trying to use up her calling card, which is awesome. she'll be in canada in two days. and i got an email from dawn in beijing. and i didn't even leave the neighbourhood today. and i'm awesome.