since last we met...

took melatonin. wrote. made a list. closed my window. fell asleep. woke up to danzig's demonthrallsweatlive. got up an hour later. felt like sleeping. got up anyway. made yerba mate/soymilk/maple syrup. made and drank smoothie: soymilk, maca, greens, banana, blueberries, flax oil, flax meal and protein, acai. paid my phone bill. checked by bank balance. fucked around. walked to scotia square, bought gold lettering, a small photo album, glow in the dark bats, a folder. hated the temperature. came home. fucked around. changed into something more exciting. packed my goods. walked quickly to work, stopped at the supertstore on the way to try to print digital photos for the second or third time: no success. continued to walk to work. priced sale items. didn't care about customers. delivered my goods. donned my shuffle, listened to random dark tunes and walked home in the dim light. ran into g and his tennis partner and helped them decide on a place to eat. was offered a ride to the valley. cool. shitty feeling swollen gland. brother's home. we resist deef. complain. a couple phone calls. i don't make jam yet again. check blogs, mail. ate kamut bread with hummus. tried to stay awake. listened to :wumpscut:. was reminded of last autumn. wrote. took vitamin a, zinc, mushrooms, vitamin c, colloidal silver, primal defense, melatonin. read a bit of the coast. write. fell asleep early. dreampt of working at heartwood bakery. woke up at 7:11 to :wumpscut: wished i could stay between my three quilts. opened my window. ate cinnamon date manna bread with my homemade strawberry jam. ate smoked tofurkey slices. drank soymilk. made yerba mate. decorated gift. made birthday card. listened to :wumpscut: reminded of autumn again. wished i could stay home today. was solemn but content. packed for the valley. brushed my body. showered while looking out the window. nobody was watching me. got dressed. now i am here.