i'm actually in the minority of women who don't mind having a pap smear.
it's not particularly comfortable, but it's not painful. i got to lighten the conversation by telling the best/most horrifying prostate exam story ever (sorry, yo).
the prognosis from the nice doctor, is that my cervix appears healthy-- and this is certainly reassuring. the official diagnosis whether i have gonorrhea, herpes and chlamydia is yet to come. i have to get a separate blood test for HIV and syphilis which they normally don't promote as necessary unless you've had "really questionable" sex. not sure i'd classify any of the sex i've had as questionable in that context, but will get tested nonetheless.
this fine doctor explained all the abnormalities in sexual health as food analogies so it's easy to picture. luckily i don't have bumps on my labia akin to small heads of cauliflower, nor a lump in my breast that's more like a frozen pea than a cluster of grapes.
i was given a package of what they're now calling "prevention" (aka the morning after pill), in case of unfortunate condom slipping.
an ounce of prevention is worth preventing an average of eight pounds of ongoing back-talking, misbehaving, expensive and unwanted hell for 18 years.
while filling out my sexual history form, i considered what sluttier girls might write on their forms if they were telling the truth. by comparison, i think mine was pretty reasonable and clean. i got some compliments on the safety of my sexual conduct from the nurse and doctor, even tho i circled two important categories when it was obvious that i was to choose one or the other.
i also paid off my student loan in its entirety today-- six years ahead of schedule (three separate banks), which feels nice, but i haven't begun the celebratory process yet, and it hasn't quite hit me that i'll have an extra $125 to spend each month (which i will certainly need in the immediate future). i want to go out for sushi. and buy a warm cardigan. and go to montreal. i think i will do all three.
i was pretty productive today-- i also bought a few necessary groceries. got some refried beans, some oatcakes and some AAA batteries for my milk frother, etc. read some of mind, body spirit fitness mag, and an article from an old new york review (my life by bill clinton). ate a clif bar, some brown rice, broccoli soup, an ezekiel bread wrap with pinto beans, avocado and pesto, some oatcakes, dark chocolate and emperor's choice tea with soymilk.
did a lot of journal writing, perhaps had a sort of epiphany, after being able to sort out some necessary shit that i've been pushing aside and/or shooting my mouth off about but not really making any sense of it. i feel pretty okay it. trying to censor what i bore people with. it's best to spend my energy on introspection anyway. wrote while listening to kmfdm in preparation for the show on saturday, and because it doesn't hold too much emotional weight yet. yet.
was talking to _ndy for a bit, which is always a good time. got to talk rawk, which is my favourite thing. he's about to go on tour again across canada, which is old hat for him now. they're actually flying to edmonton, so they will be able to arrive more rested. they're going for a month, and will end up with a show at stage 9 on the 27th of november, so that's something to look foward to. he said something great, "rock and roll isn't about reinventing the wheel, it's about carrying on the tradition."
indeed.
after supper, i slept for a few hours-- which was gold. woke up and groggily talked to chris, not being sure who it was until he called back a few minutes later. listened to the city fields album a few times, and the just friends compilation. am impressed for the most part, but was upset to find that mitchell's cowbell part didn't make the album.
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